THE DISSENTIENT SHADOW GODDESS

 Let us consider the symbolism of the snake this time.. The snake regurlarly sheds its skin and starts anew. The human kind is not that different. We can rewire our minds and also our cells can regenerate. So why are we so afraid to start anew ? To start something new and unknown ? We rarely tap into our full power and capacity while alive We tend to underestimate our potential.  The seeking of comfort and safety tend to keep us trapped in unfruitful situations. We are afraid to make mistakes, afraid of the wrong consequences. Life is cyclical. Certain cultures believe in reincarnation.You come back to learn the lesson you refused to integrate. So why not get over with it at once. Learn, live and celebrate. JH

 Let's talk about absolute attention whores and this is gender inclusive and neutral simultaneously.  Most precisely the unaware ones. To be absolutely honest. Most people stuggle with some kind  insecurity but there are the ones who project it and others who work on it, who consciously better themselves and choose not to make it the problem of everyone. Attention is currency. People who are so desperate to be seen or noticed will do so no matter the cost and consequence. Some do good deeds to satisfy their need for validation. Others cause chaos to be seen. Whether it is good or bad attention, they want it. Some desperate people who seek attention are bullies. What about adult bullies? The most desperate out of the stock and the most pathetic kind. In western psychology, one would blab about how unmet needs in childhood can cause such behaviour. But in african and oriental societies, one would simply say that the only need unmet was one where the subjet's ass had to meet...

 Growing up, aloneness was routinal for me. There was so much pain, distress and confusion in my young and tender soul that I had to confront solo. How can one feel so alone when surrounded by so many people? I always ask myself were they all blind? I always and still feel like an outsider, like an outcast, like a nuisance. I feel like an abnormality in their beautiful picture. Whenever I want clarifications on certain situations, the reply I get is "I did not know back then" or "we were not aware", "you were too quiet", "you always keep to yourself". Yet when my help is needed, my existence is noticed.  "Ignorance is bliss". Why is that so ? Because through ignorance you magically escape accountability. They were too busy praying  god to see or to notice. I bet you they noticed things were wrong. They just did not want the hassle of dealing with anything that doesn't include public recognition. "Girl, you are so busy! You ain...

"Beauty lies in the eye of the beholder". Beauty is created by the eyes of those who observe her. She does not exist all by  herself. We give her life with our appreciation. *² Societal standards try to ferociously convince us that beauty is unified and standardised. The same skin colour, the same hair texture and the same body type. We must all crave for one ideal. Like many of us, I strongly disagree.  I would go as far, as saying that there is even beauty in death and decay. The fact that leaves fall and create food for the tree itself is a beautiful cycle for me to observe. Even the wilthered flower is beautiful to my eyes. Beauty can be found in imperfection too. Life is like a school and each aspect of our lives, a classroom. While embracing the process and apprenticeship and mastery, we are bound to make mistakes.*¹ After all " l'erreur est humaine", they say. Each mistake is a step towards self accomplishment. It speaks of perseverance and resilience.   ...

 Do you honour the promises you make to yourself or only those you make to others? Are you your most loyal friend or do you betray yourself? Are you present for yourself the same way you are for others? When you decide that rest is a must, do you rest or do you prioritize household chores or bonus money? When it is time for some well deserved self care, do you do it or do you run around looking like who did what ?  The first person that needs to show up for yourself is you ! Self betrayal is a common theme nowadays. We overwork and overgive while our cups are dry and empty. It has nothing to do with selfishness. You cannot run a motor engine without fuel. Going to the gas station is not selfish. Is it? So filling your own tank isn't selfish either. Start with making small promises and keeping them. For instance, I will do the dishes and then rest because I deserve it, even though the laundry basket is full. I rest first and then I will take care of the clothes. My mum always ...

 Within this capitalistic society, plagued by consumerism, hyper productivity has become the norm and rest a luxury. Add to this, the need to prove yourself through how much you can do and you have another problem. Even when we rest, we do not feel replenished as we are either worried by bills or anxious about the future. Even when some of us rest, we are unable to silence  our brains or to be calm. We are in a constant state of anticipation or hypervigilance. What will go wrong next? What price will go up next? What is my to do list for the next day? Rest is a sacred practice. It is not only necessary for your body and your mind, but also your soul. Even when we consider the emotional body, one must rest and cleanse as we accumulate emotional waste through memories. There is a need to alchemize and release. Or else is causes clutter and stagnation.  These are basic principles in Ho'oponopono and mental alchemy. There is nothing wrong with you for needed and compulsory re...

 Anxiety  and overthinking are party crashers when you believe in manifestation and in the law of attraction. During the process of  manifesting, your thoughts create your reality. In some cases, your past and your mind continually remind you of everything that can go wrong. Then  keeping it high vibration is quite testing. You become the biggest nay sayer in your own life. The key is reprogramming your beautiful mind. I won't recommend that you  do this or that innovative technique. My only advice to you is WATCH YOUR THOUGHTs.  When it goes in the wrong direction, correct it quickly and firmly.  The key for me was self discipline. True power for healing and improvement lies within your soul and bones. No one will come to your rescue  magically. You have to do the work by yourself. Help is most welcomed and appreciated but you have to do the first step and the heavy lifting, first and foremost. For every way one thing can go wrong, there are ten ...

Writing is my therapy. It is my anchor when the world calls me crazy. Writing is my favorite tool for healing. My spirit team reminded me quite recently that before regulating an emotion, I should witness it. Then name it and  try to regulate it. They were adamant about it. Let's cover the topic of nervous system regulation and emotions. For all my hypersensitives out there, our nervous system feels bare and raw all the time. Regulation is quite a challenge. I hope my experience resonates with some of you so you no longer feel alone. Growing up in a conflictual environment where you are constantly gaslight to believe that you were the problem can add fucking puss to the wound. When you show any  symptom of dysregulation, prepare for the whooping of the century. When you talk about it out loud it is either "you don't have enough faith in god" or "you are faking it". Enmeshment is also an issue to consider. Your emotions are yours to deal with  even as a kid. ...

 Defensiveness is a key part of my character. Most people describe me as closed off. The reason being that mostly every time I have dared to open up, my heart,it did not end well, with zero accountability on other's part. Sometimes I feel like a monster, I am deeply afraid of hurting others the way I have been hurt. I feel too deeply, I see too clearly. When I hit, I know it can be lethal, figuratively speaking. I show no pity at war. War and love are the same. You love as you fight. You fight as you love. I love passionately, I fight mercilessly. My anger can be terrifying for anyone encountering her. She knows no mercy. She blows hits as deep as she feels. My anger is my best friend since childhood. She even has a name for me. She protects me and understands me. Those who caused my pain, distrust and fury were the one labelling me as "unstable". They could not manipulate me or bend me to their will. They never took accountability. They seeked comfort in the role of the ...

 8 of cups. Healing is not a one stop shop. It is a continuous and complex process and it does take a lot of time and of patience. There is much deconstruction and reconstruction needed. 7 of pentacles. Emotional healing impacts our finances. Since healing takes time, when it comes to our finances too, it will take time and patience is a must. But never forget to celebrate your wins. You deserve this. 3 of cups. Each of us is assigned a spirit team. Most spiritualities around the globe tend to agree on that. This card speaks to us in terms of collaboration and teamwork. We must collaborate with our spirit team. Ask questions, follow guidance and most importantly trust ourselves. 8 of pentacles. This card speaks about mastery. We cannot just sit there, staying still and expecting things to unfold. Some amount of physical labour is crucial for the job to be done and to be well done.  The end of the road, the final destination, for us weary souls out there is FREEDOM. When dealin...

 When one tries new things, it is normal to experience doubt. Doubt is part of growth. When you step into the unknown, you won't feel safe and you may or may not try to turn back to more comfortable lanes. I am sent here, to tell you dearest- gentlest soul, to stop doubting your greatness. Let's use our logic here, if you did all the work necessary, won't you succeed ?  The nay-sayers. Constructive criticism is good and appreciated. But what about unmotivated, bitter and jealous people in your audience? When you do the work, they know they will have to step up to the game and abandon their mediocrity. Never settle for mediocrity.  Some are governed by fear, sometimes built in fear, that they project onto others. One has to rise above that to thrive. Being cautious is good and appreciable but one who is overly or excessively cautious will never progress. At times you have to be The Fool and take that damn risk. Use your discernment, assess the risks and your options and th...

  I, The Enchantress,The Shamaness, Priestess of the Cosmic Womb, Seeress, Sage & Vessel of Occult Knowledge Alchemist, Magician & Witch. Pronounce my oath as per divine timing, under the regency of Ascended Powers & Source Herself This is my truth & authenticity! Hear my pledge According to higher decree & as per my spiritual anoitment, activations & initiations I stand firmly & humbly Ready to assist, heal defend & guide My armor is on My rod is ready My torch is lit I vow to act for the uttermost good of all In accordance to the divine will. I accept & hold within my soul both pure light & absolute darkness I am one with all All is within me and I am within all. I shall use my past, my abilities, talents,potential gifts, my pain to guide others through darkness To shield the vulnerable & the outcast I vow to hold & guard & serve & restore the One's celestial wisdom & verity I vow to call back & ma...

 Being born a woman, from a biological and spiritual standpoint, is the most amazing thing that could happen to me. But socially it sucks, like majorly-royally-cosmically sucks. Yet I would not change it for all the gold in the world, in my case all the marshmallow in the world. I cannot be bought with gold, but I can be bought with marshmallow! Just saying... On a more serious note, it melts in the mouth, and when wrapped in shredded coconut it is even better. No, now on a really serious note, not that marshmallow isn't a serious topic.  My identity as a woman is always tied to another and it hurts and burdens me so much. Whenever I point it out, suddenly I am the problem. I tried putting up with it but I ended up exploited and shredded (like the coconut).  My identity was always tied to my parents, lovers, family or work. Whatever I did for myself and by myself was always refered to them. If you knew how much I have worked my ass off in private, alone and without suppor...

 This "new year, new me" sounds like some bullshitty marketing strategy to me. You get to be a new you every single day. You don't have to wait for a specific occasion to start keeping the promises you made to yourself. Speaking of which, promises to oneself. We keep on making promises to ourselves, year after year and most of the time failing to keep them. When we have to be there for others, we can do it, but when it comes to us, we'll do it later. Changes are better implemented gradually, not drastically. One good habit here, one good habit there and without realising it or even feeling burdened, in 3 months, you have a whole new routine going. So don't wait for that right moment, start now.  Love  JH

To you beautiful warrior, This publication is certainly not about the glorification of pain and hardship. It is about the rememberance and the honoring of who we were and the journey we took to get to our current selves. It is about perseverance rather than perfection.  Whilst chatting with my guides, they gently and lovingly pointed out to me that the  most important act of self appreciation and self love I could do is being  proud of myself (and so should you). I should be proud of my battle scars because they show how strong of a woman I am.  I was tempted to write "how strong I had been" but I will rather say how "strong I am". Because strength is a mindset that once aquired, no one or nothing can take away from you. Some of us simply forget how strong and beautiful we are. Whether I succeed or fail  I am unafraid as I know that in me lie the strength and colletaral qualities necessary to start over. Pain is not my adversary. Pain is my mentor. Just with thi...