Pain as a drug

 There is the stereotype of tortured artists going around. Some are addicted to drugs, alcohol, weed or sex. I could reference the movie "Addicted" with Sharon Leal as an example.

Then there are those addicted to pain and destruction. To be honest, it isn't a different kind of addiction but rather a subset of the others. When pain becomes a drug and suffering a habit. How can life be reconstructed and creativity maintained? 

For the majority of my life,I only knew pain. That was the most stable thing in my life and it became an integral part of my identity. It heavily fueled my work and my creativity. Pain colored my lenses, guiding my vision. 

Now at a turning point of my life, I am hitting a dry spot in my artistic journey because I was successfully able to heal parts of myself, the broken parts mainly. Praise be to the Goddesses for their immesurably gracious assistance. Similarly to a newborn child, I am learning to view and understand the world again. My creativity flows differently. 

Dissentiently yours 

JH

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