Rumination
Psychiatry tells us that rumination is more or less the act of repetitive thinking or dwelling on unfavorable feelings and distress.
Let's add a spiritual twist to it. Whilst chanelling, I was told to stop ruminating as it would spiral and spike my already overwhelming anxiety.
I intensely dislike when people invalidate my pain and experiences that shaped the latter, so I won't do it here.
I am not telling you to simply move on and let it go or stop being a crybaby. Quite the opposite, feel it, express it if need be. If you can alchemize it or grow from it much better.
But what I am highlighting here is that since your thoughts create your reality, negative thoughts can impact your reality negatively and like a vicious cycle one keeps feeding the other.
The advice that was given to me and that I am humbling recommending you is to try to replace said negative emotions and experiences by positive one. Try recreating positive interactions to rewire your beautiful brain.
You and I we deserve the best.
For more details watch my youtube video on said subject :
https://youtube.com/shorts/t1FiSumzs6Y?si=48MYIBLqrgLeFlpZ